The Real Story - 2
What happened over the next five years is too much for me to write right now. I may have some extra time on weekends to recall all the details, based on how things are going.
Right now, I will give you the short of it. Annie thought this man was a God - a sexual God. And frankly, he was, and I'm not sure if she realizes she was a sexual Goddess. Two more sexually compatible people never existed on this earth. They were like Olympic Athletes, with a special kink. I was so - humbled and astounded at it, I was just happy that he made her so happy. I recieved some of the harshest, most depraved, most exciting treatment that sometimes humiliated, sometimes exhilarated and often surprised. For five years, I was cuckolded. Hard. Very, very hard. For the first three, I was really more of a slave than anything else.
But the bottom line is they fell in love, and I do mean very much in love. They started taking entire vacations together, without me. They would just inform me. Annie took off her wedding ring and wore Aaron's for two years. They started involving me less and less. There were many reasons for that, which I will explain later, but the main reason was they were in love.
My wife did not have intercourse with me once during their entire 5 year affair. It was partly because I was locked in chastity much of the time. That will certainly do it. It was mainly because - and she told me this - she would not "cheat on Aaron." As the time wore on, he removed her more and more from me, and she went to him haltingly at first, then willingly.
When I finally rebelled - when I finally did what a normal man would do, things began to unravel. It was a very sad, horrible time. She ended up dumping both of us; then we reconciled. Then she saw him again. It wouldn't end. When she finally told him she was going to stay with me, all hell broke loose. Bad things happened. He went crazy. It was a very scary time. I wanted to wipe him off the face of the earth. But after a few more violent aftershocks, it was finally over.
That was four years ago. It's been difficult for us. We rarely have sex. We still love each other, but it is plain she just doesn't have sexual feelings for me like she used to. I can't blame her. The few times I've made love to her, it did nothing. I spend over half the time back in the spare room. Back where I had to sleep when she was Aaron's.
Still, we are the best of friends. She is so beautiful, it hurts when I think I almost threw away my marriage because of my strange needs and desires. Sometimes I want to puke. And sometimes, I really miss it. When that happens, I think maybe I need to check into a mental hospital, because I must have a serious problem. Regardless, it has been a more or less sexless marriage for a long time now - just a little bit, here and there. In some ways I understand it - there is no competing with Aaron, not in any way. She is right. Sexually, the guy was God. But until recently, I really wondered if I could survive with so little intimacy at least.
So I was surprised last month when Annie called me into the room and asked me to give her "head." She hadn't talked like that for years, and she hasn't initiated sex with me for over 3 years. She did it again the following day, and the day after. Then she produced my old CB 2000. "I used to like the way you acted when you wore this. Put it on for me again."
I was, in fact thrilled. It brought back those feelings full force. I don't think anyone could be the kind of cuckold I was for 6 years and just suddenly become......a Man again. The past month has been more intimate, more action packed than any in a long time. I've been locked in my little toy for a month now, (it's a joke compared to the chastity methods she and Aaron imposed back in the day). But it feels familiar. I am feeling submissive, horny, good.
And wondering, what brought this on? Why am I feeling back to the future on this?
And so I asked her.It turns out, an old friend was waiting by her car after work last month. It was Aaron.
That's all I can say tonight. I have more to get out. Thanks for your honest feedback.
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