That last post brings me close to being up to date. I'm not sure how interesting our arguments/debates would be to you all. Making sense of this requires a lot of words, and I'm not here to bore or to entertain. Just to document as much of this experience as I can without writing a full length novel. I could! I am a writer. I could use an editor, I am sure.
I will post more about what happened in the past because it gives meaning and context to what is happening now. I do tend to bounce from past to present and back again in my writing. Just telling you that as an FYI.
I want to say this: I am not angry at my wife for what she did last month. I am also not happy about it. I thought we were starting something new - even if it did look mighty familiar, I was very happy.
We're going out to dinner in a few minutes, and she said we'd talk about this later tonight. I am anxious about it, but I know better than to push her to make a decision. I know she won't do me wrong, she has already told me that. The only time she's gotten angry with me over this is when I told her what she's considering is a "dangerous game."
"I don't play games," she hissed. "Unlike you, everything I do is real, not some story."
Or something like that. Anyway, gotta go eat.
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