The Real Story I Have To Tell -1

[devavu2009]

A Moment of Truth

Sometime in 2002, Aaron spent the weekend at our house. By now, this was getting more and more common as our kids had left the nest. Annie and Aaron always slept in our bed; I used the spare bedroom. I frequently cooked dinner for them – dinner for two, where they would eat together by candlelight, and I acted basically as a waiter. I served all of their food courses, filled their wine glasses, and cleared the table. Otherwise, I stayed out of their way. Almost every time he visited, I performed this service at least once during the course of the weekend.

They honestly treated me like hired help, too. Aaron often brought his laundry for me to wash, iron, and fold, while he and Annie lounged by the pool, went out to lunch, or had sex. Sometimes he had me wash and wax his SUV, while he and Annie played. By now, I was trying to perform all of the domestic duties for Annie as well. Since I work from home, and she works at the office, this made some sense. But mostly it was about control, and role. My role was subservient.

And I loved it. As long as I was locked.

I served them breakfast in bed, brought them water during and after their lovemaking sessions, changed the cum covered sheets with fresh dry ones. I drove them out to dinners, opened the car doors for them. I was their servant. If I’d done a poor job during the week, or disappointed her, Aaron would talk to me. Sometimes he would call me from Miami to admonish me if I’d disappointed Annie in some way.

One time he grabbed me by the shirt and I thought he would get violent. (He didn’t) We were alone. Annie was in another room. I did a shitty job folding her laundry, and when she asked me about it, I started complaining. Aaron told me to go apologize and promise her it wouldn’t happen again. Which, being the wimp I am, I did.

If it sounds like a horrible existence, well it wasn’t. Annie was happy. Aaron was happy. And the more submissive I became, it seemed the happier I became. It was if I were shedding my manhood, skin by skin.

One night, the two of them were making love, and I happened to be watching. It wasn’t every night that I watched, or even wanted to. When you’ve been chastised for a long time, sometimes you’d rather think about anything else but sex.

Anyway, on this night, Aaron climaxed into my wife. They laid and kissed for a long while. He called me over. I knew the drill. By now, I’d cleaned Annie up so many times; I couldn’t imagine eating her without eating his sperm in the process. And I had come to like it. To crave it. It was about all the intimacy I got, and the closest I ever got to Annie.

As I approached my wife’s pussy, Aaron broke his kiss with her and lay on his back. This was unusual. His cock was still very hard, very large.

“Me first,” he said. “Clean me first.”

They both looked at me. Annie was visibly smirking. I got within inches of his cock, when Annie cried out, “NO!” “STOP!”

I backed away, shaken and embarrassed. I went back to her pussy and performed my usual ritual. I heard her say, “What’s up with you guys?” They resumed their kissing.

Later, when she went to the bathroom, Aaron said to me, “It doesn’t matter to me that you didn’t suck my cock. I know you would have.”

“Yes”, I thought. “You know I would have. And so does she.”

[Custer Laststand]

Devavu2009,

Originally Posted by devavu2009

Annie Returns

Annie returned home yesterday at about 6 pm. She was positively glowing. I met her in the driveway and carried her bags for her.

Good.

Originally Posted by devavu2009

I returned [to the couch with my wife's glass of water], and I sank to my knees in front of her.

Very good.

Originally Posted by devavu2009

It is hard for me to properly describe what 6 weeks of unrelieved chastity does to me. [When it's] combined with being cuckolded, I can only describe it as a state of constant arousal and deeper and deeper submission. The longer it continues, the more submissive I become. Annie knows this.

Ah. So your wife understands you well....

Originally Posted by devavu2009

I kissed her feet. I sucked her toes. I licked her legs, and went back to the bottoms of her feet. I told her I loved her. Over and over and over again.

Excellent. An appropriate greeting and welcome for your wife, when she came home from fucking her lover.

Originally Posted by devavu2009

“Of course you do,” she said. “Lick my other foot, that feels nice.”

Your wife seems to understand it's best to not say "please," but rather to order you to do what she wants.

Originally Posted by devavu2009

As I licked, I told her I would do anything, anything for her. When I am deep into subspace, I always say this sort of thing, and I mean it. At the time.

Those were entirely appropriate words as you licked your wife's feet. Hm.... maybe the key to impressing your wife more fully with your commitment to her would be for her to ensure you are fully in subspace more of the time....

Originally Posted by devavu2009

“I know you will do anything for me, honey. That’s what I want from you. I need for you to do exactly what I want."

Ah.... your wife informed you directly of her expectation.

Originally Posted by devavu2009

"And right now, I want you to eat my pussy. ....”

Well, that didn't leave you with any doubt....

Originally Posted by devavu2009

I was so excited. I removed her panties. They were soaking wet. I smelled them. She watched me, smiling, and said nothing. Her panties smelled like sex. I started licking her inner thigh, working my way up. Then her cell phone rang. .... “Go fetch that for me,” she said.

Excellent. Another direct order, which left you with no ambiguity re. what to do. And you complied, obviously.

Originally Posted by devavu2009

It was Aaron. She started speaking to him, and then pointed to her pussy. I started licking her. This time I went straight for the prize.

It's very cool that your wife ordered you to suck her cunt while she spoke with her lover on the phone..... a nice touch.

....

Originally Posted by devavu2009

When she hung up, she said, “Aaron says hello.”

That was polite of him.

Originally Posted by devavu2009

“I thought you were going to tell me about your weekend,” I said. “I’m tired, sweetie. What do you want to know? I mean, we had sex. You already know that." “I mean, this ‘conclusion’ or decision you said you were going to reveal. Did you talk with him about that?” I asked. “Yes,” she said. “Well, can you talk with me about it?” “No,” she said. “Not until I’m sure about it.” “It’s about him, isn’t it? His wife died and now you two are free to do whatever you want.” “Yes, that’s true,” Annie said. “That’s part of it. But only part. You worry that I’m going to leave you, and I keep telling you that will never happen. I love you. And I’m not ready to say any more about it.”

Hm.... if I had to make a guess as to what your wife (and, perhaps to a lesser extent, her lover) have in store for you, it would be that it links back to her statement:

Originally Posted by devavu2009

“I know you will do anything for me, honey. That’s what I want from you. I need for you to do exactly what I want."

Regarding your concluding comments:

Originally Posted by devavu2009

So I learned from listening to the phone conversation that Aaron will be here Thursday through Sunday night. I will be cooking them dinner. .... He is monitoring my chastity. .... etc ....

How, incidentally, does Aaron "monitor your chastity"....?

—Custer


*Hm.... I see I've already dropped behind your narrative.

[devavu2009]

Monitor might have been the wrong word, Custer. I've been a little manic today. I don't always express my thoughts as clearly as I might. "Interested" might have been a better choice. He was always interested in that, for sure.

[devavu2009]

I am way too locked bonkers right now to be taken seriously, but I will give it a shot. I don't believe that my wife's boyfriend just showed up to see her out of the blue. I wonder now if they haven't been seeing each other for awhile. How could I have missed it. Well, I miss a lot of things, so maybe, I don't know. Not that it matters. But that is my suspicion. I have had a few beers. I don't usually drink, or haven't for the past 8 months anyway. I used to. Goodnight.

[Custer Laststand]

Devavu2009,

Originally Posted by devavu2009

Monitor might have been the wrong word, Custer. I've been a little manic today. I don't always express my thoughts as clearly as I might. "Interested" might have been a better choice. He was always interested in that, for sure.

OK.... thanks for the clarification.

Originally Posted by devavu2009

I am way too locked bonkers right now to be taken seriously, but I will give it a shot. I don't believe that my wife's boyfriend just showed up to see her out of the blue. I wonder now if they haven't been seeing each other for awhile. How could I have missed it. ....

Since you've said Aaron can't stand the idea of your wife having sex with anyone other than him, including you (her husband), and in light of your reply (above), a good guess would be that your wife began fucking Aaron again at the same time she told you she wanted you to begin wearing your chastity device again — and you complied.

Originally Posted by devavu2009

I have had a few beers. I don't usually drink, or haven't for the past 8 months anyway. I used to.

Hey.... moderate drinking (but not anything in excess of moderate drinking) is good for your heart. You might find it worthwhile to google "moderate drinking v. health" and spend some time checking it out. Unless, that is, you're a recovering alcoholic and really have to stay off the sauce completely.

—Custer

[devavu2009]

I don't know - I used to drink wine at night. Too much. I would sign on the net and chat with Aaron. To be honest with you, I didn't always remember everything I said. And some of what I do remember, I wish I hadn't said.

He used to say to me, "I'm going to take your wife." And "You are crazy!"

I do remember that. And I remember being so secure that I thought he was the one who was crazy.

Turns out he saved every chat we ever had, and my wife has read them all. She let me know 5 years ago before we separated for awhile. Some of the things she says I said to him, well, I certainly don't remember. Because I was drinking.

Some I remember well.

In any event, I've calmed down on that front. I have a beer once in awhile. That's it.

[Custer Laststand]

Devavu2009,

Originally Posted by devavu2009

I have a beer once in awhile. That's it.

Sounds good.

Originally Posted by devavu2009

I don't know - I used to drink wine at night. Too much. I would sign on the net and chat with Aaron. To be honest with you, I didn't always remember everything I said. And some of what I do remember, I wish I hadn't said. .... He used to say to me:

"I'm going to take your wife." ....

In light of what happened in the past when Aaron and your wife were clearly, profoundly, and passionately in love with each other; and given that Aaron's (unattractive and unloved) wife died so he's now single; and given he returned to meet your wife (possibly after considering other alternatives, but you don't know that) but she didn't tell you until some time had elapsed; and given the two of them began fucking again and your wife put you back in a chastity device;

—> that's a statement you should take seriously. <—

Because, for all practical purposes, Aaron *did* take your wife in the past and he has taken her again now, with her full cooperation. But, he seems clearly to have more in mind. Note he and your wife are going on a 4-day "vacation" (without you) which might more properly be called a planning trip. Note also your wife told you she has "plans" in mind for you.... but she won't tell you what they are (yet).

In light of this, and in light of what happened in the past, your comment:

Originally Posted by devavu2009

I remember being so secure I thought Aaron was the one who was crazy.

seems definitely optimistic.

I strongly suggest beginning to think seriously about this question: "When does having a hotwife with one lover she is passionately involved with turn into a con in which I am (/you are) the 'mark,' and in which the con artist (Aaron, aided and abetted by your wife) gains something very substantial and very important to him (your wife), in the end leaving you with nothing and/or in a situation many would consider worse than being left with nothing?"

Originally Posted by devavu2009

Turns out he saved every chat we ever had, and my wife has read them all. She let me know 5 years ago before we separated for a while. Some of the things she says I said to him, well, I certainly don't remember because I was drinking.

Maybe you don't remember some of the things "your wife says Aaron says you said to him" because you didn't say those things.

In any case, this is clear evidence of bad faith on Aaron's part. It's evidence he was not communicating with you in any way that might be considered authentic. Rather, he was scheming against you then and is continuing to do so now.

If you agree with this interpretation, you might consider declining to "communicate" with Aaron with regards to anything of a personal nature or involving your wife, or your "feelings" about your wife and/or him.

You might, however, make decisions re. whether to "communicate" with him about things of a factual or logistical nature on a case-by-case basis. But, I suggest not "communicating" with Aaron when you've been drinking. If he wants to talk at such times, tell him you'll get in touch with him later.

You might be able to make a start on improving your situation with respect to all this by insisting your wife take responsibility for her relationship with Aaron (i.e., that's her thing, not yours), and by insisting that she guide events involving you and communicate with you re. the two of them. The most realistic view of Aaron for you to maintain, IMO, is that he's a person external to your relationship with your wife whose intention is to take your wife. Consider that an unvarnished fact without any femdom or D/s sugarcoating. It's what he told you. Believe it.

—Custer

[devavu2009]

The End of the Beginning

In 2004, after I refused the “Steel Trap”, Annie and Aaron started seeing each other alone. At first, I wasn’t too alarmed. Sometimes they did this. But when she started announcing they would be taking long weekends alone together, not even asking me if I wanted to go, I became concerned. Then came a weeklong vacation to the mountains. I was informed less than a week before they left.

At home, she was remote from me. There was no contact physically. She spent hours on the phone with him every day. He no longer came to our home.

In late summer, they took off again, this time barely informing me at all. I was told they were taking a cruise out of Miami. I argued with Annie at the time, and said this was all going too far. I had run out of answers to the question, “So where’s Annie? She always seems to be gone!” Even harder to answer was, “Where’s Mom?”

“Business trip” was the most common lie, but it was getting really old. When you come home with pictures of yourself snorkeling in the Bahamas, or climbing a mountain in Tennessee, nobody believes it’s some corporate team building exercise.

I knew I was losing her.

When she returned she told me we needed to talk. She wanted a separation. She told me she was in love with Aaron, and wanted to be with him exclusively to find out if it was real. I could take as long as I wanted about moving out. She said she loved me and wanted to remain friends.

I became very, very distraught. I remember some of the things she said vividly. This recollection is an accurate summary the tings she said at the time:

“I just don’t understand you. You commit to something, we do it, and then you back out. That’s what you do. Over and over. You say you will listen to me. You get tired and stop listening. You say you will do the housework. That doesn’t last. You say you will wear your cage, and you cut it off. You have these ideas about me being with another man. I do it. Do you know it’s been 4 years? FOUR YEARS. Aaron is the only man I’ve been with. I spent all that time with him. What did you think would happen? We’re human. We fell in love. Do you think this is all some big GAME? It’s not a game for us. You’re fucking with people’s lives. With MY life. You didn’t lose me. YOU GAVE ME AWAY! YOU GAVE ME AWAY TO ANOTHER MAN. WHAT DID YOU THINK WOULD HAPPEN? What’s wrong with you? Are you GAY? Are you Bi? What do you want? Did you just not love me? Well, I can’t do this anymore. I am not in love with you anymore. I am in love with him. Isn’t that what you wanted?”

It went that way. It was angry and hurtful and confused and true. I don’t want to go into any more detail, because even now, it makes me sick. At the time, I’d have given anything just to take it all back; to go back to the year 2000, and make a decision to live a normal, monogamous life with my beautiful wife. To never have done any of these things at all. I had opened up a Pandora’s box. I felt like the smallest creature on the face of the earth. The separation lasted for 7 months. It was followed by a hurtful breakup with Aaron, a situation so dragged out, so vile; I came to hate him more than anyone on earth.

What followed was about 4 years alone with my wife. Sexually, she lost interest in me. She tried to make something happen that first year, but I was so intimidated by her, I couldn’t get it up. I was a great performer with my own hand, so I knew there was no physical problem. But I felt like a little leaguer going to bat against Nolan Ryan when I tried making love with her. She really ran cold, when it came to me, and I couldn't warm her up.

So, not much happened. I felt guiltier and guiltier, and wondered if someone who seemed to love me actually hated me. Or the other way around.

It is hard to tell sometimes.

*************************

So it is not a shock that another man has entered the picture. I fell down on the job a long time ago. It is a shock that it's him. What’s even more shocking is that I am letting it happen. The man I hate so much, who actively tried to take my wife, is doing it again.

I should be visiting a divorce lawyer. Or fighting him back, fighting for my woman.

Instead, I will be spending the next 2 days cleaning our house and preparing for the two of them to have a romantic weekend. And it makes me very excited. It is perverted in every way. Completely upside down. I feel terrified. I feel incredibly submissive and excited. I have to find out what happens next, as if I'm some kid at the movies.

For me, apparently, what comes next is cleaning. Ann left me a note this morning with instructions.

[devavu2009]

The Note

D, I’ve been telling you to get those old suits and dress pants out of my closet for years. There’s no room in there. I put your stuff on the bed. Go through it and throw out what you don’t want, or what doesn’t fit you anymore, or give it to Good Will. Put the rest of it back in your room. I need all of the laundry finished, and separated, and put away. In case you can’t figure it out, I’ve labeled my drawers. My dresses and pants go on hangers and need to be put in the closet. You know where the sheets and towels go. Tomorrow, you can vacuum and dust. Today, you need to take care of this.

Love A
It looked like ALL of my stuff was piled on the bed. I grabbed the pile and brought it out into the living room. I’m not finished sorting through it. I just went back into her room for some more, and I noticed the dressers have pieces of paper taped over the drawers.
“Bra’s”, “Panties”, “Shirts”, “Lingerie.” All of my stuff was gone from the closet. Nothing much left in the drawers, either.

It made me wonder. Then again, she’s been asking me to do this for a long time. But what stopped me in my tracks is the dresser by the bed. There was a picture of us on our wedding day that has been propped up on that dresser for many years. It was gone. In its place was a picture of Annie and Aaron on a tropical beach. A very sexy picture. She is dressed in a tasteful one piece bathing suit. He is wearing a black bathing suit, and is shirtless. The blue\green ocean is the background. They are embraced in a very passionate kiss.

She must have wanted me to see it. Or has it been there for awhile, and I just didn’t notice?

This is really fucking with my head.

[devavu2009]

Originally Posted by Custer Laststand

Devavu2009,



Sounds good.



In light of what happened in the past when Aaron and your wife were clearly, profoundly, and passionately in love with each other; and given that Aaron's (unattractive and unloved) wife died so he's now single; and given he returned to meet your wife (possibly after considering other alternatives, but you don't know that) but she didn't tell you until some time had elapsed; and given the two of them began fucking again and your wife put you back in a chastity device;

—> that's a statement you should take seriously. <—

Because, for all practical purposes, Aaron *did* take your wife in the past and he has taken her again now, with her full cooperation. But, he seems clearly to have more in mind. Note he and your wife are going on a 4-day "vacation" (without you) which might more properly be called a planning trip. Note also your wife told you she has "plans" in mind for you.... but she won't tell you what they are (yet).

In light of this, and in light of what happened in the past, your comment:



seems definitely optimistic.

I strongly suggest beginning to think seriously about this question: "When does having a hotwife with one lover she is passionately involved with turn into a con in which I am (/you are) the 'mark,' and in which the con artist (Aaron, aided and abetted by your wife) gains something very substantial and very important to him (your wife), in the end leaving you with nothing and/or in a situation many would consider worse than being left with nothing?"



Maybe you don't remember some of the things "your wife says Aaron says you said to him" because you didn't say those things.

In any case, this is clear evidence of bad faith on Aaron's part. It's evidence he was not communicating with you in any way that might be considered authentic. Rather, he was scheming against you then and is continuing to do so now.

If you agree with this interpretation, you might consider declining to "communicate" with Aaron with regards to anything of a personal nature or involving your wife, or your "feelings" about your wife and/or him.

You might, however, make decisions re. whether to "communicate" with him about things of a factual or logistical nature on a case-by-case basis. But, I suggest not "communicating" with Aaron when you've been drinking. If he wants to talk at such times, tell him you'll get in touch with him later.

You might be able to make a start on improving your situation with respect to all this by insisting your wife take responsibility for her relationship with Aaron (i.e., that's her thing, not yours), and by insisting that she guide events involving you and communicate with you re. the two of them. The most realistic view of Aaron for you to maintain, IMO, is that he's a person external to your relationship with your wife whose intention is to take your wife. Consider that an unvarnished fact without any femdom or D/s sugarcoating. It's what he told you. Believe it.

—Custer

I believe you are right, Custer. It's already happened, yet nothing has happened. I'm going to have a serious talk with her when she ges home. So far, she been pretty artful in how and what she's communicated to me. This is what I mean - being torn inside, one half knows everything is crazy, the other half seduced, like a moth seduced by a flame.